Lots to think about...

First of all, would like to say thank you to everyone who took time to actually read my first post. I was surprised, to say the least. Thanks in part, especially, to a few really nice sentiments; well, really, to everyone who commented to me, you made me feel very legit in my crazy farm and art fantasy feelings!


I think part of what is driving my need to create something more is my job... and getting a puppy. Randomly, though I love taking care of G, he is more than capable of taking care of himself. Feminists, don't hate, but I think it would be fun to cook and manage the household, and hand him a martini at the door each night! But really, getting Teddy made me really realize the truth of my lifestyle. It's been creeping up on me for a while now. I work in the aviation industry, as an 'air hostess' (wink, you know what I mean...aka "Excuse me, Stewardess!"). As such, I am usually traveling at least two weeks out of the month. Ted really has brought my emotions to the surface about leaving home. I feel all this stress about leaving my husband, my dog, my mom and dad, missing events with friends all the time!! So, I'm thinking, even though I love the job, it's lost a lot of the luster it had when I first started. I think, though it's in my heart forever, I have more to accomplish in this life than serving Pepsis and fake laughing at weird jokes told to me by creepy strangers... So, I am making a pro and con list with you about my potential future dreamin'. 


Here are some scary things about starting a mini farm:
1. Chicken crap. Is it just, like, everywhere? Do I have to clean out the coop? I'm sure I do. Ick, I am not into that. 
2. Alpaca spit. I think they are pretty major spitters, right? What happens if you get llama spit in your eye? Also, are llamas and alpacas the same? Also, I want to shave them in the spring and make mittens out of their fur. Are they going to try to kick me while I do this? 
3. I'm allergic to horses. So, am I allergic to donkeys also? My mom says yes. I say, maybe not. Does anyone have anything to back up either side of this argument? We've got nothing, either of us.
4. Oh my gosh, how am I going to grow anything successfully!? Just general ignorance and fear here. Don't even know where to begin research when I'm living in an industrial loft surrounded by concrete. 


Here are some scary things about leaving air hostessing:
1. Getting the H away from whatever it is going on at home. Not like anything is every going on at home that I want to get away from... But the travel becomes kind of addicting, even when you are going to such fabulous destinations as Detroit and Mil-yuk-ee.
2. WILL I BE MAKING A HUGE MISTAKE?? Does everyone have this thought when they are making a big life decision? Especially when you are starting to get to be acting like an adult and aren't really unhappy in your current situation, but are yearning for a change? High school teachers, please feel free to weigh in on this. I'm wishing for some advice circa Arvada West 1998!
3.4.5... Travel Benefits. We aren't going on fancy trips right now, but we want to!! Should I hang on, even at minimum hours, if possible, so me can continue to non-rev on our future fancy trips?


Okay, I guess this was more of a 'freak out on each choice' list than a 'pro/con' list. But now that everyone's exhausted with all these questions and speculations, it's time to cool off. Turn on the American Idol, fire up the microwave for some hot pockets or some vegan cheese roll ups or whatever. Again, thanks for reading my non- destroyable diary. And thanks for any future comments to bolster me on or help me figure it all out. Talk to you later, as we say. XO